for the love of pink

i had some idea instilled in me that the girl who could shoot pool and drink beer was the one people not only wanted to be around, but the one they wanted to be with. it was a way of standing out, by blending in, by being that girl who could “hang with the boys”.

re: motives

naturally, a woman who cares about her appearance can't care about her intellect. so for whom, or for what purpose, am i trying to reconcile these aspects of myself?